Well, my head has become an interesting place lately. Let’s see… last night I dreamed I was cutting people up with swords (though they WERE trying to kill me), my meditation locations have become infested with gigantic underground creatures, and my avatar character has gone almost completely darkside.
On the plus side, I’ve written many songs lately (more than I can keep up with, actually), I found an awesome new band (The Hush Sound), and we’re getting better internet today.
The cutting-people-up-with-swords probably has something to do with the fact that I’ve been watching an awful lot of Buffy the Vampire Slayer lately, and I have no idea why huge yellow-eyed creatures keep popping up when I try some innocent pathworking. The avatar thing, I think, is because I’m losing inhibitions when I work with my characters. They’re pretty much running wild, and my mind running wild is a scary place to be. I’ll have to work her back around to being lighter, but right now I’m kind of enjoying being able to do whatever I want. She also has a new romantic interest, who’s a lot darker, and that might be doing something.
The songwriting has been crazy – it might be because I’ve stopped trying to force myself to write. I just sit down and play with lyrics. But it’s also been harder, ’cause I’m not in a basement anymore (where no one can hear me), so I have to censor myself or sing very quietly when I’m working.
I haven’t been going to any youth group because I have been very ill, but I’m hoping to make it next week.